Tag: Trauma
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Misericordias Domini (2nd Sunday After Easter) ~ 14th April 2024
The following sermon was not an easy one for me to write, and I’m still not sure how much I like it or how happy I am with it. But I got a fair bit of positive feedback from women from both congregations where I preached this past Sunday. One thing in particular stuck with…
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Healing F***ing Hurts Sometimes
Form the moment I heard BLĂœ EYES’s song “healing hurts” for the first time it resonated with me. A lot actually. But at first not because of how therapy and my healing journey felt like when I initially came across that song. When I heard that song first I was in a pretty decent place…
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When it rains, it pours
[TW: suicidality, self-harm] At least, that’s what it feels like at the moment. But I don’t want to be all whiney about how difficult my life is. I don’t think anyone would want to hear that. But what I do want to talk about is this week and today in particular. This week is just…
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Am I Disabled?
When people look at me most would probably say no. After all, unless you spot my hearing aids, I look like an able-bodied woman. And even if someone sees my hearing aids, they may not think of me as disabled. Especially if they are like so many people and think of disabilities as something bad.…
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The Words We Us or Family Isn’t Always Easy
I just got off the phone with my brother. He had called to ask me a quick question and we ended up talking for a bit over 20 minutes. It was really nice and I enjoyed that bonding moment with him a lot. Even though part of the conversation wasn’t a happy one and I…
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Shame
Between reading BrenĂ© Brown’s book Daring Greatly. How the Courage to be Vulnerable Transforms the Way We Live, Love, Parent and Lead and something my therapist pointed out on Friday, have been thinking a lot about shame. Or maybe I should say I have been thinking about it more than usual. After all, shame is…
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Pretty Bad Psychiatry – Add-On
And of course I forgot something in that long post about my experience with the psychiatrist the other day. Things that I also consider at least off-putting, if not an outright red flag. So when I told the psychiatrist about my mother’s mental health and substance abuse issues and her suicide attempts, she asked me…
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Paper Cuts
A lot of people call me “too sensitive”,”too emotional”,”too fragile”,”too much”.They say I over reactto the smallest bit of criticism.All my life I believed them.And I still do.Even though I don’t want to.Their voices became my voice,my negative self-talk.And yes, I do take things to heart.I don’t have a thick skin.When you criticises me it…
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When Trauma Memories Hit You Out Of The Blue
On my way home from work today a trauma memory resurfaced when I drove past an accident on the highway. Police and fire brigade were already there and either an ambulance hadn’t been needed (what I doubt) or it had already left. So I didn’t stop, but slowly passed in the lane furthest from the…